So, I wake up this morning to find out that one of mum's friends has killed himself, and that my email has been hacked.

I apologise for the pictures, but am somewhat offended at the assumption that I would send something like that out.

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very High

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

Basically I have been informed today that if I do not have a job within a week, I will not be welcome in this house any more.  So instead of spending time looking for work and/or other options, I am now forced to spend this next week packing, looking for people to sell my shit to, taking my cat to the pound, and then looking for a ditch to go and OD in.

SO.

For Sale:
22" Samsung WS LCD monitor
5.1 surround sound Logitech speakers + console adapter
G15 mk2 keyboard
MX1000 Logitech wireless mouse
Antec Nine Hundred gamer's PC case
Mobo + dual-core AMD CPU
8800GT
2 gb RAM
HDD + DVD drives
Nintendo DS + M3Real
iPod Video 30gb + cable
Sennheiser earbuds
Nokia N73
Huge collection of manga, DVDs, games, CDs, and books.
Clothes, bedding, linen etc.

And one friend who doesn't seem to understand how the world, and people, function.


Anyone that is interested, please get in contact with me.  All proceeds will be donated to a charity of some sort.

"And [Rudd] lashed out at anyone who may have been responsible for lighting the fires, which have destroyed more than 750 homes.

"What do you say about anyone like that? What do you say? I don't know," he said.

"There's no words to describe it other than it's mass murder.""


I don't know what else to say about this.  I'm mourning and grieving for people I don't even know.


 

Hideo Kojima sat alone at his booth at E3, surrounded by fans and press, commenting on his new PS3 release, Metal Gear Solid 4. Of course it was a smash hit, and he knew this… Yes, Mr. Kojima had always had a knack of hyping his games up, filling them with confusing story elements, and producing the most confusing, but celebrated, stealth action titles in history. He smiled in self-gratitude, but then groaning internally as a fan asked a dumb question.

Of course this was the end of Snake. That’s what he had been telling people over the last couple of years of development. He sighed, giving the fan a “We’ll see…” and the giddy fan boy skipped off in glee of hope of the series revitalizing with his fictional soldier.

It had been a stressful day for the writer, director, and producer from Konami, and E3 was definitely not helping. A number of interviews had already taken their toll on the video game designer, and having this new and revitalized E3, as they called it, blaring nonsense and noise from speakers and game setups; he seemed as if he was ready to pop. He waved off the fans and press and decided to take a walk around the show floor, se what the other designers and developers were doing, and of course lay down his two cents. But his curiosity led him to another place first, a place that he had been tormented by since the start of the convention. He looked over to the Ubisoft booth, his eyes resting upon the one true desire of this entire mess. There she was… Jade Raymond…

( Read more... but be warned: it's very NSFW and contains watersport, scat, orgies with fat developers, yaoi with creepy Japanese guys and Cliffy B (of Gears of War fame), and Wii remote insertion )

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

And Emily's reply: "I'm up for contact if you still want it.  I would make this longer but I'm about to run off to work - you have my most sincere apologies for me being an ass but you've confused the hell out of me and avoidance was, maybe still is, a convenient way to try and keep my head sorted."

...how am I supposed to take this reply?  In what manner have I confused her?  Gah!  Women!  Sometimes I wish I was asexual or something.

"It's not a particularly nice moment in life when you come to the conclusion that a close friend's interest in you wanes in tandem with their interest in a video game.  For almost a year I have begged and scraped for even an hour of your time and you may be surprised to know that it's not because of my attraction to you.  Oh, I'd get daily phone calls in the month or so that you were playing WoW again, but not a single one since.  I'm giving you the same ultimatum that I gave Kien; after this message I will not contact you again.  You know where to find me if you feel like making an effort.  If not then so be it."

Hmph, let's hope she proves me wrong.

Tagged by cubicality 

The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Then tag 10 people and ask them nicely to post this meme on their LJs. Because it is good. Everyone needs a little happiness once in a while.

1.  Music.  I finally found the artist of the song in this awesome Sailormoon AMV from my highschool years.  I also discovered an EBM/IDM/synthpop torrent with all of And One, Icon of Coil, VNV Nation and a few other bands I've been after for a while, and have been listening to  bit of my old favourites like Rammstein.
2.  Cuddles from my kitteh.  I know it's little and silly, but it's nice feeling like I really am loved unconditionally even if it is just my cat.
3.  Levelling a new character with cubicality, getting my warrior past 50 and my priest closer to 50.  I may have been playing for nigh on 3 years, but I still enjoy the game.
4.  My DS.  Nothing more relaxing than a hot bath and playing FFTA2, or more recently, Viva Pinata and Spore.
5.  My little brother.  He's grown up so much, and even though he has his asshatish moments, he's become such a sweet young man.  I can't say I approve of him dressing as an emo kid though >.>
6.  Splurging on myself my PC.  I recently bought a Samsung 22" screen, a new mobo and AM2 5200 (which cost me next to nothing from a mate at work), a new soundcard (which reminds me, I need to set up my 5.1 again XD), and Cheryl bought me an 8800GT as a belated birthday/this birthday present.
7.  Clean bedsheets <3
8.  The sun shining again.  Admittedly I don't spend much time outside, but sitting outside with the sun on my back is amazing after such a chilly winter in an arseingly cold house.
9.  The possibility of actually getting out and being social (shock horror).
10.   Uhm... 4chan?  Porn? :D

Hmm, tagginess.  Gah, you've probably all been tagged by now, but if you haven't then you can do it anyways.

1. nikki_mischief 
2. nikki_mischief
3. the_metzler 
4. annie_chan  
5. mparf 
6. lucidlucifer 
7. annie_chan 
8. mad_hatter__ 
9. cubicality 
10. gallac 
11. mparf 
12. annie_chan 
13. nikki_mischief 
14. annie_chan, mparf, cubicality 
15. mad_hatter__ 
16. pfcblogshere 
17. nikki_mischief, lucidlucifer 
18. nikki_mischief 
19. pfcblogshere 
20. the_metzler 
21. nervegasattack, nekomazhule, cubicality, butterflyishida 
22. nikki_mischief 
23. nikki_mischief, butterflyishida 
24. lucidlucifer 
25. nervegasattack, cubicality 
26. cubicality 
27. Everyone on my flist, I'd hope.
28. plastic_logic 
29. cubicality  :D
30. It's up to you to decide how seriously you wanna take this list :D

Answer 'yes' or 'no' only to the following questions, the catch is you can't explain unless asked...

1.Taken a picture naked? Yes

2. Made money illegally? No

3. Had a one night stand? Yes

4. Been in a fist fight? No

5. Slept with your best friend? Yes

6. Had sex in a public place? Yes

7. Ditched work to have sex? Yes

8. Slept with a member of the same sex? Yes (or in my case, the opposite sex)

9. Seen someone die? No

10. Ran from the police? No

11. Woke up somewhere and not remember how you got there? No

12. Worn your partners unmentionables? Yes

13. Fallen asleep at work? Yes

14. Used toys in the bedroom? Yes

15. Ran a red light? No

16. Been fired? Yes

17. Been in a car accident? No

18. Pole danced or done a striptease? Yes

19. Loved someone you shouldn't? Yes

20. Sang karaoke? Yes

21. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes

22. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? Yes

23. Caught someone having sex? No

24. Kissed a perfect stranger? Yes

25. Shaved your partner? No

26. Given your private parts a nickname? No

27. Ever gone in public without underwear? Yes

28. Had sex on a roof top? Yes

29. Played chicken? No

30. Mooned/flashed someone? No

31. Do you sleep naked? Yes

32. Blacked out from drinking? No

33. Felt like killing someone? Yes

34. Had sex more than 5 times in one day? Yes

35. Been with someone because they were in a band? No

36. Taken 10 shots of liquor in a day? Yes?

37. Shot a gun? No

38. Gone outside naked? Yes

39. Killed someone? No

You know you wanna know the details :D

I'm actually really quite worried that it's real.  At first it didn't seem dark enough to be real, but the way the colour changes just seems inconsistant with paint.  Also, the lightness of it could be discolouration from the flash.

"Women are too busy making sure you're not staring at their imaginary fat/real fat/cellulite/stretch marks/bike accident scar/deep bellybutton/tan lines/ugly boobs/huge nipples/mole she hates/tiny boobs/meat curtains/VAGINAl imperfections of any kind/ huge butt/ thunder thighs to notice ANYTHING wrong about you, except maybe a parasite twin growing out of your ballsack.

For the record, every woman on the planet, given this list, will claim to have 95% of the imperfections listed on it. Every. One."



Also, I took the jump and told her.  To my surprise, it didn't end up anywhere near as bad as I was expecting.

True, to a degree.  At least I know now to stop trying and can attempt to be happy with just a friendship.

Almost 4 years.  That's quite a long time when you're only 20 and a half years old.  From just before my 16th birthday, I think it was (sometime in October?) to just before my 20th (again in October?), you were everything to me.  You were the only reason I continued plodding along in my god-forsaken life.  From the day-to-day activities all the way up to my long term goals; you were it.  We'd spoken about the inevitable before; there's no way that we could continue such a long-term long-distance relationship.  We decided that we would still stay friends, and that we would leave ourselves open to opportunities in the future.  You told me that when the time came, it had to be me that made the decision.  So I did.  God, it was after a good month or two of a harrowing self-assessment.  Why were these feelings that had been there for so long starting to dissipate?  Was I growing out of you?  Oh god, did I still love you?

I did.  Hell, I still do.  Just because I'm not in love with you any more doesn't mean that you are nothing to me.  I still love you so much, and care for you like no other.  What happened to staying friends?  Why all these angry words, and then solomn ones?  You tell me that I broke your heart, and I accept that.  But now... you've betrayed me.  All those things you promised me, all those things you said when you agreed that we should break up, and those kind words when I told you how weak I am, how I couldn't hold myself together any more let alone our relationship.  I've tried everything to keep this friendship together, but now I just don't know what to do.  So I won't do anything.  If these 4 years have meant so little to you, then by all means never talk to me again.  But if there is still a connection there, like I think there is, then you know where to find me.  I will not come for you until you make the effort.

Good-bye.